Hey, I'm back...
It's been a long time since I update my blog huh...
So, this is the 1st post for the year of 2013, the year of snake.
It's been a rough days these days..
I'm currently on CNY holidays..
So I took this free time to update my blog..
When I read back my last post, it was soooo silly...
Gosh, I'm ashamed of myself writing it on my blog..
haha.. Sokayh...
Now I'm happy with my life..
I dont need her anymore..
So, where were we?
Ah, yes..
The 1st post...
Nothing special tho..
Jz want to inform that I'm still alive...
That's all for now..
XOXO, Rieydz...

Hyep!
Miss me? Miss you all too~
Just want to say I'm excited about this coming Thursday..
I'm having my car JPJ test...
If I passed, I will get my driving license in 2 weeks or less..
Really looking forward to it..
Hope the JPJ officer will not be so strict to me...
Wish me luck guys!!
Tomorrow will be my last car lesson if I passed this JPJ test...
And tomorrow I'll be on the road...
Yipee~~
That's it for now...
Wait for my good news ya!
Love ya all!
Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!

XOXO, ARC

Hey guys...
It's me again..
Wondering bout the title of this post?
Well, yes & no..
Yes, I'm frustrated but no, I'd move on...
1st frustration, KPLSPM rejected me.... :'(
2nd one, UPU too rejected me... :'(
What's I'm gonna do with my life? *sigh
I'm really at my wit end now...
Everyday do the same thing..
Wake up, eat, on9, sleep, f*cking..
What the hell~
I can't go on like this...
Luckily there's car lesson for me...
Trying to get my car+motorcycle license in the meantime...
I knew May will be my SHIT month...
Oh Gosh! Fuck my life~
Kbye~ >_<

Hello readers~

"It's over.....
It's over...
Why it's over..."
Bahaha! My SPM exam is over!!
Finally, I'm free!!!
I <3 this feeling..
Guess what I'm also free off?
I'm free from any relationship!
Oh yeah! I'm single!
Bahahah! I'm sad actually..
But I think it's silly for me to express my frustration in this blog..
So, Let me keep it to myself..
Ok.. So what are we gonna talk about today?
Let me think...
Aha! What I'm going to do for this holiday???
Bitching? Shopping? Outting? travelling?
So many options yet so less money.. =.="
I'm not going to work that's for sure...
I only have 1 month of holiday before going to that MOTHERFUCKER HELL SERVICE...
So, I'm gonna enjoy my holiday to the fullest!
But how? I'm single now..
I thought of going to Kuching to meet my lover but since I'm single now.
There's no reason for me to go there anymore... Bahahaha~
I guess I just need to stay @ Sibu...
There's a lot of events going on around the town...
Sibu Bike Week, Food Fair, Year-End Sale...
Maybe I'll go to those event...
Anyone want to join me?

7 is down.. 3 more to go...
Urgh! Can't wait to finish the exam...
2 more killing paper and another kinda easy paper then I'm done..
Next Tuesday is Chemistry.. The next day is Biology..
I still have 4 days to go for my chemistry paper..
So, I steal some of my time to update this blog...
This time it's not something important...
Just want to scream my heart out!

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Dear, I miss you..
Why did you do this to me...?
It had been 6 days you'd been missing...
Don't you love me anymore?

Hey guys...
Today I just had my history paper...
The subject I HATE the most.... *sigh
And guess what?
Bang! You're on "Scare Tactic!"
Lol... But I'm serious...
Before the exam, I was so scare and nervous...
I thought the question will be as hard as rock..
But, I was stunned by one of the question....

*Lyrics of national anthem.

1st question, "What is the name of the song above?"
Next, "How do you respect the song when you sing it?"
Then, "What are the messages contain in the lyric?"
4th, "How do you apply the messages in life?" #something like that.. I cant recall...
After that, "How do you feel when you sing the song?"
Last, "Why did you feel that way?"

=.=||| These are not history questions...
Like seriously??? This is more to civic question..
But I'm still grateful as these question came out..
Kinda easy... Thanks God!
Hope I can get good grade in this subject!
If God willing... :D

Ladies & Gentlemen..
It's been a while since I update my blog..
It's not my fault actually...
I'm going to sit for my SPM SOON... Specifically, 4 days left!!
So, I don't have time to update this blog...
Because I spent most of my time now with REAL BOOK.. Not facebook...
After this I'm going to study for my history subject..
So let me talk a bit bout the title above...
Lately, I knew some "open" friends...
Gosh, I love hanging out with them..
What did I mean by "open"?
It means that, I can talk almost everything with them..
Not like other normal friends where I need to choose a suitable topic when I want to start a conversation with them..
Fuh... Troublesome...
Can't get it?
Let me give you an example:
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With "open" friends...
Me: He's cute....
Them: Where??? Gosh, he's really cute...
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With normal friends...
Me: He's cute..
Them: Euw... Are you gay? *With disgusted look
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See the difference?
These normal friends are so boring and closed minded...
They always jump to conclusion without asking...
Prejudice I guess?
So, if you really want to befriend with me, you better OPEN your mind as wide as possible cause I hate CLOSED MINDED friends...
Everything is "Eerie" to them..
WTF???? o.O!!!!

他：你读哪里的？
我：XXXXXX的..
他：哦...
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他：可以坐下吗？酱站很酸料... *看来看去
我：不懂哦... *也是看来看去
他：刚才小学的都能有坐下...
我：坐啦..哈哈！
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*看到到有人坐下....
我：有人坐了..快点坐啦..不是很想坐咩？哈哈！
他：恩... 脚站没有力料...
*一起坐下
他：哈哈！很可爱叻... 马来人打武术...
我：就是咯...
*那个马来人差点跌倒...
我：哎呀..差点跌倒...
他：很紧张耶..
我：是鞋太大料耶..
他：哈哈哈哈！
我：鞋出卖了她...
他：把鞋烧掉..哈哈哈..
我：哈哈哈... 你第一次比？
他：恩..
我：哦.. 后面穿紫色那件很难厉害耶... 他去年比过拿名料... 可是今年又有比.. 欺负人的..
他：是啊？哈哈哈...
我：你form几？
他：Form 2...
我：囧？？？输给你...
他：你form几？
我：Form 5...
他：一样的啦..
我：哈？你form几啊？*还以为刚才听错
他：Form 2..你几岁？
我：17..
他：一样的啦..我也是17岁..
我：蛤？*Blur-blur的
他：我重读.. 我停学停两年..
我：做么叻？
他：不想读哦... 我读XXX的...
我：哦..知道.. 很厉害...
他：呵呵...
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MC：第八参赛者，XXX 和第一参赛者,XXX 请进场..
他：哈？到我料咩？
我：不懂哦..他们都叫你名字料..去啦..
* 结果MC又叫他出场..
他：哇老..很丢脸也...死的... 三条线给他... =.=|||
我：哈哈哈哈.. 囧！
他：就是咯..现在没有紧张料..很丢脸而已...
我：哈哈哈..很好哦..我很紧张啊..
*轮到我们了... 打完就没见面了...哈哈哈...
~The End~

- Broken Heart
- Rejected
- Ignored
- Left out
- Money problem
- Cursed
- Cheated
- Back-stabbed
- Lovingsomeonewholovesomeoneelse
- Jealousy
- Envy
- Loveless
- and more.................................

70 days left for the SPM examination to come...
Oh, GOD.. I'm so nervous..
I think I'd not done anything yet...
Fortunately, my 1st trial results are not bad...
So far none of the subjects failed....
Thanks God!
Hope I can maintain this performance..
2nd trial is coming soon...
Has to be more serious now...
After that, it's the final battle, SPM!
Wish me luck k?
Love ya! Mwackz! :-*

Terima kasih atas segalanya...
Terima kasih kerana sudi hadir dalam hidupku...
Engkaulah pengubat kesuyianku...
Walaupun kehadiranmu cuma sementara...
Tapi ku tetap bersyukur...
Kerana diberi peluang untuk menjaga dirimu...
Dari lahirmu ku menjaga dirimu...
Kerna ibumu entah hilang ke mana...
Kau yang paling kuat antara dua beradikmu ..
Kau tetap berusaha untuk hidup walau kehilangan ibumu.
Dan atas usahamu, kau telah diketemukan dengan diriku...
Waktu itu, aku melihatmu terkial-kial...
Mencari ibumu yang hilang...
Amat kasihan keadaanmu...
Lalu ku bawa kau masuk ke rumah...
Ku jaga kau dengan penuh kasih sayang..
Dengan sabar ku melayan karenahmu...
Kaulah temanku sewaktu aku kesunyian..
Kau memberi aku peluang untuk merasa bagaimana menjadi seorang abang...
Kau juga lah pengerat hubungan keluargaku...
Kau bagaikan cahaya mata yang lahir dalam sesebuah keluarga..
Kau telah menjadi penyeri dalam kehidupan keluargaku..
Sungguh bahagia rasanya...
Namun, kini kau tenat...
Tapi ku tidak pasti apa sebab dirimu nazak....
Kau tahu waktumu semakin dekat..
Kau tetap berusaha untuk hidup pada saat-saat akhir...
Sementara menanti diriku pulang dari sekolah...
Setelah ku pulang, lalu ku menemui dirimu...
Badanmu yang lemah terkujur di atas lantai...
Dengan cemas aku mengangkat dirimu...
Kau pandang wajahku...
Kau seolah-olah ingin memberitahu aku..
Bahawa masamu telah sampai...
Kau melihat diriku dengan mata yang lemah dan sayu...
Ku suruh dirimu untuk bertahan...
Namun, akhirnya kau pergi jua....
Meninggalkan diriku yang kesedihan....
Ku ingin kau tahu bahawa....
Aku tetap merindui dirimu, anak kucingku....

Dirimu dalam dakapanku yang terakhir ketika dirimu masih bernyawa...

I'm so sad now...

Ever think about on committing suicide?
I did... Twice~
1st time was my never-started 1st love..
Silly huh...?
2nd time was NOW! (It's connected to the 1st time incident... Read my previous entry to understand more..)
I had planned a lot of think to do after my SPM is over...
But.... It's all over! Not the SPM, I mean my plans! It's all ruined!
I planned to meet my love one, to get my driving license, to have fun, to do part-time job...
But it's all OVER! All blame that FUCKING STUPID national service...
The national service only give an allowance of RM450 for THREE MONTHS!
I CAN earn WAY MORE than that in THREE MONTHS by doing part time job...
DAMN IT!!
Plus, I don't have to go BALD, to get my skin burn, and eventually to KILL myself!
The national service is nothing but disaster! I fucking hate it!
I can't even think of any good by going there...
It's like living in a jail... Like a prisoner!
No facebook, no handphone, no freedom....
I don't know if I will live long enough to go there..
Because now I'm only thinking about the best way to commit suicide...
But I don't know if I have the will to do it...
I'm sorry... Pray for me k?
I love you all.. :'(

Lately I  had been zombiefied again..
I don't talk to people..
I don't mix with people..
Why? Because I'm frustrated...
I had been chosen for the National Service(PLKN)...
I don't care about the PLKN thing..
I only care about my hair... PLKN's rules are that I need to go bald..
It's against what Gaga had taught me...
I had my right for my hair...
They can't simply ask me to go bald..
What kind of fucking rule is that?
A lot of people don't understand...
They only know to say "Relax... It's just hair.. It will grow back.."
What do you expect me to do? Sit there & wait for my hair to grow?
I don't have the time to wait for it to grow back you fucking idiot!


Once, I love a girl... I really love her...
But, she rejects me because I'm ugly..
I know that she's laughing at me...
"X sedar dirik ka? Muka kdk ya mok ngan aku? HAHAHA!"
I cried my heart out.. I even zombiefied for a week....
Since then, I start to care about my appearance...
I always feeling insecure about my look...
I always admire those with good-looking and I try to be like them..
But I'll never be like them.. What's ugly remains ugly... So do I...
But at least I'd try to change... And the result was good... More people like me then..
Plus, I had become more confident since then..
But now... the PLKN force me to go bald...
I don't want that... Please... I'm begging you...
I can 'see' those people who will laugh at me.. Because I'm ugly..
No one will like me anymore... I'm trauma for the incident..
I hope that whoever is reading this now understand why I don't want to go for the PLKN...
It's not that I don't want to go, I just don't want to go bald....
But I had been chosen. I had no choice but to go...
So, this I promise you all... After I come back, don't ever try to find me..
I'll deactivated my BOTH facebook, delete my blog, change my number...
I can't bear the shamed of going bald... I don't want to see any of you in my bald condition... I'm ashamed of myself... By doing this, no one can see me and laugh me...
So, I'm sorry k? I love you all but I really need to disappear.
Thanks for being my friend..

With love,
Rieydz

Guys... I really need your help...
There's getting a lot hottie adding me in FB..
But I'm trying to be loyal here...
I'm not single k?
I'm the type who easily get attracted....
No matter those hottie seduce me directly or indirectly...
But, urgh... They are HOTTIE for Godsake!!!
Dayumn, I'm melting!
I don't want to hurt somebody's feeling..
But, I can't control myself....
I really should stop playing FB...
Too much temptation... Argh!

Huhu.. Lambat cita ku.. Maka 25 riya dah 1 month meq 2 koh..
Yerr.. Ya k padah wak ka? Hau tek kachak?! hahahah!
Bie, Happy 1-month Anniversary!
ILYSDM! Mmmmmmuuuuaaaahhhhh! :-*
Even kta jaoh p still pat tahan pey kinek...
Boh riso bie, x meq curang bah...
Nya ya sama juak! Boh nak ngenja!
Hee~ Mun da rezeki, dapat ta temu lak k?
Ya jak la... Luv you! <3

Waa.. Tajuk kali tok berbeza lu jak.. Hee...
Bukan pa, ku rasa ku perlu lebih bersyukor bah atas segala kurniaan-Nya ngan ku..
Lepas tauk kisah kawan ku, baruk ku terfikir... Aku lebih beruntong...
Tapi dolok aku x pernah sedar... Aku terlalu ekot nafsu...

Sorang kawan ku(rich family), parent nya x ambik berat ilak sal nya...
Makan minum pun x terjaga.. Bayangkan, rich family oo.. Now, nya kira sosial juak la...
P ku da ngontrol nya juak.. Sebagai  kawan bah... So, x sosial ilak nya kinek....

Sorang gik kawan ku, da problem ngan parents...
Kira tek parentsnya  nang x lalek ngan nya la... Kawan ku ya ada penyakit...
P ku pun x tauk penyakit.. Nya x mok madah ngan ku juak..
Nya dolok nang sosial abis... P x tauk tahap ni la.. Ku pun baruk kenal nya lam 1-2 bulan.
Now nya dah ok kit... Coz aku da ngontrol nya sikit(Jaik na aku)...

Ritok nya madah something yang molah ku pikir jap..
Word nya tek:
"Xkan la ktk mok mcm tok smpe bla2, klk2 ktk akn crik juak bh..cmya juak kmk klk"
Erm.... Nya cam nya tauk2 jak ujong2 lak meq 2 akan break......
Pi ku x sanggup mok hadapi semua ya... Nyaris gik nak nangis tek..
Pi ku gik pat tahan... Setakat nangis lam ati, ya dah biasa bagi ku...
Kenak xpat happy ending? Kenak? Ku dah sayang nya gilak2...
2nd time ku sayang orang pitok gilak.. X tauk ku kenak ku jadi camtok..
Ya susah mun lam forbidden love tok... Addict but deadly~
Cam laut ngan sungey.. Xkan dapat bercampor... Mun bercampor, arumbulak kiamat dunia..
Ku x berani mok bayang ari2 last meq 2.. X sanggup ku...
X sedia gik ku mok hadapi semua ya.. X mok ku nambah lukak ku gik..
Cukup2 lh lukak 1st ku nak paling dalam..
Pi, ku gerenti... Pasti ada lukak kedua... :'(
Ku harap ku dapat terimak semua ya lak.. Tapi bukan nektok...
Bukan dalam masa yang terdekat! Ku lom ready!
Bie, meq syg ktk gilak2... Meq x sanggup ilang ktk... ILYSDM! <3

Trauma Seorang Lelaki..

Sering Kali Teringat Cinta Pertama Yang Mengecewakannya..

Di Ikuti Dengan Cinta Kedua Yang Mematahkan Hatinya 


Dan Seterusnya Cinta Ketiga Yang Mempermainkannya & Melukakan Hatinya.. 


Kerana Itulah Lelaki Lebih Lama Untuk Single Bagi Mencari Cinta Terakhir Yang Berbeza Dari Sebelumnya.~~~~

害..
为什么酱？
爱他有用咩？
我又不懂他要表我..
心情很烦啊！
去告白？想得没！
最讨厌被拒绝的..
可是他又好像给有我希望的感觉..
酱很好玩啦？
要就说一声嘛..
我要他先动手..（自己又不敢）
酱就不会有拒绝的事咯..
因为我不可能拒绝他的..
会笨吗我？
要他可又不敢跟他讲~
算啦...安安静静的爱他也爽..虽然感觉很难受！
很想要他知道..
我会一直的爱他...

psst: “不是我写的...从别人那边copy的..喜欢弄你们好奇罢了..xD”

Well, obviously is because she got TALENT...
She can sing(Everyone knows that), dance in her frigging HIGH HEELS(few can do that),
and MOSTLY she loves her Lil' Monster including me! Aww.. I love you too, Gaga..
Next, she's pretty too..(In her original form of course)
But when she put on those extravaganza outfits, it just make her more amazing!
Then, her song are too hot to handle I guess.. I think I knew every single song she had excluding those unreleased one... From Poker Face to Judas... Every song are fantastic!
I love her message in her song... Especially in the song "Born This Way" although I'm still in love with Judas... xD
Be yourself. That's the main message.. Don't afraid of what people think about you... You're beautiful in your way cause God make no mistake..  Love it!
"You shouldn't like her.. She's illuminati.." Well, I don't give a fucking damn on those bullshit. That's her own problem... All I know is I love her music, her style and her voice..
That's it! Others I don't care..

Ku mok lens tok!